Warning! This story deals with gender/transphobia and underage sexuality/rape. If either of those are triggers for you, you might not want to continue. Neither Carcajou or myself in any way endorse violence against children, sexual or otherwise. That part of the story is not written for our enjoyment. We get no sexual satisfaction from it. Love, Carrion and Carcajou <3
Merlin is out gathering mushrooms in the forest, putting them into her apron as she finds them, humming softly to herself. She starts heading back to the village, smelling smoke in the air. That's nothing new, but there does seem to be more than usual.
She hears the galloping hooves of a horse approaching and men's voices shouting.
Startled, she looks up--all the horses she knows are used for farm work, and are never galloped. She runs for home, calling out for her mother.
The pounding hooves overtake her quickly and she feels herself grabbed by the back of her dress as the horse passes her. She's heaved up over the back of the horse, sideways over the withers.
Merlin screams and kicks wildly, trying to push herself off the wildly running animal to one side or the other, completely terrified. All she can see of her captor is his leather boot, worn smooth by riding.
The man's gloved hands hold her tightly to the horse, one hand in her hair and the other on her upper thigh.
Merlin eventually falls still, exhausted, watching her village being burnt to the ground, and everyone she's ever known being killed. She shuts her eyes tightly and clings to the horse.
After the village has been reduced to smoldering ruins, the rider nudges his horse and rides off. He stops in a clearing. He drops her off the horse and dismounts.
She falls with an 'oomph!' as the air is knocked out of her lungs, clinging to the dirt as though she's about to float away. Her dress is filthy, and her first thought is how angry mama will be...until she remembers. She lays as still as possible.
Now she can finally see her captor. He's a large man with tanned skin, black hair and a short beard. He takes off his gloves, tossing them onto the saddle. "Come here, pretty thing."
Merlin curls into a ball, squeezing her eyes tightly shut and humming softly to herself, trying to block out the man's voice.
He grabbed her, sitting her up and hiking up her skirt. He pauses, making an odd face. After a moment, he pulls down her bloomers.
She screams and tries to squirm away, kicking and flailing at him wildly.
"You're a boy?!" he lets her go.
Merlin shakes her head, sitting a few feet away from him, trying to rearrange her clothes. "No I'm not," she says.
"You have a cock!" he stands up, looking down at her.
"You shouldn't be looking at that!" she shouts, angry now, matching his tone. "I'm a girl. I have what girls have."
"Am I a girl?" he asked, sarcastically.
"No." She crosses her arms over her flat chest and glowers at him. "Obviously not."
"Then why do we have the same bits?!"
"I don't know! Why did you just burn down my village?! You're...a monster, that's what you are. That's why you have girl-bits."
"I wasn't the only one, boy, and all those men have the same parts that we do. What the hell!" he paced, angrily. His horse snorted and pawed uncomfortably.
"...how am I a boy?" Merlin asks, sounding a little uncertain. After all, the rest of her world has been turned upsidedown...
The man undoes his trousers, pulling out his cock. "You've got one of these!"
Her eyes widen at the sight, and she averts her eyes. "Yes! You shouldn't be waving that around. How does that make me a boy?"
"Only boys have these." he snarled. "Girls have holes, boys have cocks. What the hell is wrong with your village that they don't teach you that?"
Merlin blushes, then yells back, "Nothing, now, because it's gone! Why did you take me with you?"
"Well..." he looked like he couldn't find his words. "I was gonna fuck you, but I wanted a girl." he spat at Merlin's feet. "So I guess I'll take you to the city."
"...are you sure I'm a boy?" Merlin asks, looking close to tears again. "...maybe you're just not..."
He kicked her, grabbing her by her skirt and tossing her onto his horse again. His horse started a little, pacing in a circle until he mounted behind the girl.
She squirms, grabbing at the horse's mane until she's sitting properly, not just thrown over the saddle. "Why are we going to the city?" she asks, glowering back at him.
"Someone will want you," he glowers.
"For what?"
"I dunno. But I'm sure I can get a good price for you." he snapped. "Now shut up."
Merlin glares at him for a moment longer, before turning back to face forward, trying to get his little cock comfortable.
****
When they got to the big city, her abductor dropped her down on the ground in front of a two story building.
Merlin spits on his boot, quietly, and gazes up at the buildings and people around her, awed.
"Clara!" he called in through the door.
Clara, the large, busty madame of the brothel they're in front of, comes out when she hears his familiar shout. "Felix! What's this you've dragged in?" She seizes Merlin's jaw and scrutinizes her.
"Boy who thinks he's a girl. You like freaky ones, right? Willing to pay for it?"
Merlin glowers but holds still to be examined.
Clara raises an eyebrow. "...is that so? ...I wouldn't really call that 'freakish', Felix...just...confused. Well, bring her inside, we'll have a look." She roughly grabs the girl's arm and pulls her into the building.
"Didn't say freakish." he muttered, following her in. "Freaky."
Clara rolls her eyes. "Wait out here. I'm sure she's been at enough with you poking and prodding her." She points to a comfortable horsehair chair and leads the girl through a curtained doorway into another room. "Lay down there," she points to a low bed.
Merlin lays down, a little nervously, but she knows that tone--there's no arguing with it.
"Good girl." she says. "Now, Felix says you're a boy. Is that true?"
Merlin shakes her head, relaxing a little now that they're alone.
"May I see?" Clara asks, touching the edge of Merlin's skirt.
She nods shyly, turning away.
Clara lifts her skirt and finds she doesn't need to lower her undergarments, since they're already down around Merlin's knees. After confirming what Felix had said, she pulled up the girl's underwear, rearranged her skirt and stroked her hair back into order. "Why don't you sleep here for tonight? What's your name, honey?"
"...Merlin..." the girl says, glad she hasn't been shouted at or told she's a boy or anything. She smiles at the older woman, enjoying having her hair stroked.
"Well, you rest, Merlin. There's a bath across the hall if you want one, and your chamberpot's under the bed." she kissed Merlin's forehead. "No one will come into this room except for me, alright?" she smiled, standing to leave.
Merlin nods, smiling gratefully.
Felix is stalking back and forth in the outer room, irritated by the wait.
Clara goes outside, glaring at Felix. "You rogue, you scared her half to death."
Felix makes gives her his most innocent look. "What're you talking about? I brought him straight to you."
"Then why were her bloomers around her knees?" she snapped. "Don't you have more respect than that? I thought I taught you better."
Felix rolls his eyes. "So? How much for the boy? Why're you still saying 'she'?"
"Because that's what she thinks she is." she frowned. "Four coppers?"
"Four coppers! And people call me a crook!"
"She's still a baby! I'm not going to put her to work for a few years, she'll be doing laundry and serving tea. I'm not buying a working girl, I'm buying a servant that needs to be trained." she said, putting her hands on her hips and leaning forwards, ample bosom nearly touching him. "And you are a crook!"
Felix shrugs. "I don't see anything wrong with her--him--but...alright. He's not doing me any good. I'll take it." He holds out his hand.
She reached into her cleavage and pulled out a small purse, handing him four copper coins. "Now either get out of here or make yourself useful, you little trouble-maker!"
"Yeah, yeah." He pours the coins onto his palm, glances at them to make sure they're in order and puts them in his own purse. He mounts his horse, giving Clara a little wave. "Say g'bye to the boy for me!" He rides off.
She shakes her head, smirking a bit. She retires to her room to wait for evening. Their sort of business doesn't happen much in the morning.
****
A few years later, Merlin is in the brothel's small garden, picking herbs for dinner. Although he's long since figured out what the place is, and his own gender, he still considers the brothel home, and often wears women's clothing.
"Merlin!" the young man hears a familiar voice calling from over the fence. Felix opens the gate, coming in. Over the last few years, he's developed a bit of a fondness for Merlin. Though he was hardly surprised by the boy's growth into a delicate and angelic young man, he was surprised to find that his feelings were the same for someone he knew was male. "Big day today?"
Merlin goes over to hug Felix, blushing a little. "...yes." He has mostly forgotten or repressed the events that brought him here, and he always enjoy's Felix's visits, although he's always a little wary.
Felix handed him a little present, a chocolate. "Well, uh... good luck." he chuckled, trying not to flush himself at the suddenly very awkward moment. He brushed past Merlin and headed inside.
Merlin takes the chocolate, raising an eyebrow at his sort-of-uncle's behaviour. Shrugging, he goes inside to find Clara, stowing the chocolate in his room. He's both dreading and anticipating dark.
Clara gives him a hug, enveloping him in her arms and bosom. "My Merlin." she kissed his cheek. It was clear that she was pretty emotional over Merlin's first night as a prostitute.
Merlin grins at her, blushing a little again. "Felix is here," he says.
"Yes, I saw that scoundrel come through." she chuckled. "Oh, I have a present for you. Come up to my room."
she bustled away, expecting him to follow.
He follows, not sure what to expect. He hasn't been to her room very often, especially now that he's older and doesn't have nightmares very often. "Clara?" he asks, shyly. "Should I dress like this, or like a boy?" It's a question that's been asked at least fifty times in the last month, since they'd decided that it was time for him to become a prostitute.
"Well, I think my present might answer my feelings on that." Clara laughed, handing him a long box. "But I want you to dress however you like to, love."
Merlin nods, nibbling his lip. He sets the box on the bed, opening it tentatively. Inside is a gorgeous blue shift with matching blue undergarments. There are even ribbons for his long hair, all of it going perfectly with his blond hair and fair skin. "Oh, thank you! It's beautiful!"
"I know you always wanted a dress like Opal's." she smiled. "Should I let you get dressed?"
Merlin hugs her, grinning broadly. "Thank you so much!" He glances out the window. "Yes, I guess it's about time...the customer knows that I'm...you know...right?" he asks, another oft repeated question.
"Of course, I was very careful to pick someone we trust." she kissed him on the cheek. "I'll leave you to dress, honey. Oh! Before I forget. You get a name, just like the other girls. Sapphire."
"I know, I'm sorry...I just...you know..." He presses the dress to his narrow chest. "I'd forgotten!" he says, not lying very well. "Thank you. I love it. It's perfect. Will...will you still call me...?" he asks, shyly.
"Of course, darling, you'll always be my little Merlin." she smiled. "I'll be making tea downstairs if you need me." she left Merlin to get ready.
Merlin smiles again. "Thank you..." He heads to his little room, putting on the new clothes and spinning around happily, admiring his reflection in his small, polished metal mirror.
"Lovely." said a demure voice from the doorway. Ruby stood there in her red ruffled skirt and nothing else. "Here." she strode over, handing him a bottle.
Merlin smiles at the familiar voice. "Thanks. You too." He takes the bottle, frowning at it a little. "What's this?"
Lube. For sex."
He looks puzzled. "What's lube? Clara didn't say anything about that..."
"I didn't think she had, so I thought I'd better. Don't want your first time to hurt!" she chuckled. She opened the bottle and poured a little onto his fingers. "You put it on his dick and you put some in you too, alright? Girls can make their own, but no one can for anal."
Merlin rubs the oil between his fingers, blushing a little, nibbling his lip. He nods gratefully.
"Have fun." she grinned, leaving him with the bottle.
"...thanks!" he calls after her, clutching the bottle and sitting on his bed, looking concerned.
Felix knocked on the door, waiting awkwardly outside.
Merlin leaps up, then calms himself and walks sedately to the door. "Yes? Oh. Felix."
"Hey, crumpet." he walks in. "So, you know who it's gonna be yet? Have you met him?"
He raises an eyebrow. "...is that why you're here today? No, I don't. I think Clara did it that way on purpose...don't you trust your aunt? Crumpet, indeed." Merlin twirls to show off his new outfit.
He stammers. "Well - uh, a beautiful crumpet?"
He laughs. "Thank you. You shouldn't be in here, he should arrive any moment."
"Okay. Just be safe, okay?" he said, stumbling a bit and giving Merlin a clumsy, stubbly kiss on the cheek.
"...of course. Are you drunk?" Merlin laughs, pushing the older man away.
"No more than usual." he rubbed the back of his neck. "I'll see you tomorrow." he said, backing out of the room.
He rolls his eyes and laughs, gently pushing Felix's large chest to get him out. "Yes, you will. Between the two of you, I'm amazed that you haven't offered to be in the room yet--and don't even think about it!"
He flushed, leaving.
Shaking his head, Merlin settles down to wait again, trying to think of himself as Sapphire.